

She Held Me Close And Whispered "Kill Me"
2017-08-26 · 149 min · Not rated
A depressed filmmaker takes on a new project that might help him break into the mainstream or drive him further into despair and reclusivity.
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- Directors
- Scout Tafoya
- Production companies
- Honors Zombie Films
- Countries
- United States of America
- Status
- Released
- Budget
- USD 300
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