

I Don’t Want to Be Just a Memory
2024-02-16 · 20 min · Not rated
Berlin queer community members mourn the substance abuse-related loss of their friends by sharing memories and rituals. Resembling glow-in-the-dark fungi, they radiate light together as a network of support and care.
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- Sarnt Utamachote
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